I have always been a Truth-teller, but unfortunately, was not allowed or encouraged to speak truth about certain areas of my life.
That was incredibly painful and felt deceitful. The terms silence is deafening… Silence is painful… Silence is loud. I understand those things in a very profound way. The biggest lie I told was that I was “fine” when I really wasn’t. It seemed to be encouraged by many of the people around me. It changed the energy and atmosphere in a positive way for some.
Now I feel like I’m the thorn in the side of my family. I do not hide in darkness because I am light. I do not tolerate lies. They make me feel sick to my stomach at times. Sometimes I feel so insulted because the liars think they’re a lot more skilled than they are. They are playing checkers and I’m playing chess. They don’t see that I can see them and many don’t really see me.
That’s OK. The people that I need to see me do. I honestly pray for my enemies and pray for people that choose to be manipulative and deceitful. Forgive them father for they know not what they do. Or even what they’ve done. Those are my prayers. Then I move on and stop letting them live rent free in my mind.
I sleep very well because I know that I’ve operated in Truth. I know that there is a call on my life and I’m doing everything that I can to be obedient.
Some people think that I am nothing, that I have nothing, when really I have everything they just don’t see. And that’s ok.
That’s just my two cents…
